Third Times a Charm...

Well, when a friend of mine emailed me to ask if I was pregnant I thought about it for a minute and came to the decision to just tell everyone. I thought about Gracie and how we told everyone right away because we were just too excited about the news. Then I thought about Oliver and how I waited until I was four months along to tell everyone. When my mom found out, she said " Debbie, I have been praying that you GET pregnant. If you had told me, I could have been praying for you to have a healthy and successful pregnancy "... so she made me swear I would tell her as soon as we found out we were pregnant with our third. So... here I am at 8 weeks pregnant... telling you. I'm scared I just jinxed myself. But I figured the more people I tell, the more people can be praying for us and this little one growing in my belly. I'm not worried about having a healthy baby. Gracie and Oliver were perfectly healthy, they just came to this earth too early. My hope is that we, along with our Dr. will be able to do everything we can to keep this baby inside me until it's safe to come out. We had our first appt. on July 31 and my Dr. was very optimistic about this pregnancy. He is planning to do the cerclage at 15 weeks, which will sew up my cervix and hopefully keep junior in longer. (don't worry, I will never name a kid Josh Jr. especially if it turns out to be a girl :) ) . The DR. has me on progesterone to help with the baby, I'm taking recommended pills left and right and doing all I can. Even not complaining about throwing up at LEAST 4 times a day if not more.I go see him again on August 21st. He is going to keep a close eye on me. And while Josh and I are so excited, I think right now fear is looming over us. We don't let it consume us, but I have found that we aren't talking about "baby stuff" as much as we did with the other two. My belly is already showing which is so weird to me. But maybe by the third baby, your body just knows to start stretchin'... I told the Dr. either I'm just bloated, or I'm having twins, or I'm just getting fat in my belly area because I can't imagine I would be showing at 2 months. He said every pregnancy is different. I did go online and look at other pregnant bellies at 8 weeks and some of them were even bigger then I am, so I'm sure everyone is different. I don't mind the big belly. I love my maternity clothes :). The Dr. doesn't seem to think I'll need much bed rest after the cerclage, ( like I said, he's hopeful this is going to work. But we shall see. I think I may put myself on bedrest the further along I get. I'm too scared something will happen. I'm going to be very careful because with our history, you never know what could happen. I can tell my walls are up, but can you blame me. I talk to this baby every day and I rub my belly and tell whoever is in there to just STAY PUT !! I know I am a mother already. I think about and miss my Gracie and Oliver every single day. But I can't be with them... not yet anyway. So... please keep us in your prayers and thoughts that this pregnancy will go smoothly and we will ONLY deliver when it's safe for both of us. This baby is so loved !!